i am fucking desperate right now
despite a mere 5-hour sleeps that i have had these few days,
everybody seems to have always been pissing me off .
i feel like swearing a lot of people these days .
class has started,
and although it was fun, but still
i can't seem to get over my anger
it has been overwhelming me .
i really want to scold people right now
but i cant
cos there is no one to scold .
lawl .
fuck .
its all that i can say right now
im damn tired .
i want to neglect my responsibilities
and just enjoy myself
sleep all day
but for some fucking odd reasons
i cant get to sleep once i have awakened .
and the qualities of sleep i have been having is low .
which results in
headache + anger + stress + other useless rubbish
damn .
i just wish
i could go to sleep
for 24 hours !
so that i will be fully recharged .
ready to tackle any assignments thrown at me .
but what about now ?
a mere 5 hours of sleep each day !
and i cant get to sleep
before the midnight .
great !
and it takes me too damn long ot get to sleep
like about 1 hour of lying down on the bed .
and then i can get my fucking low-quality sleep .
what the fuck
god please,
i beg of u
give me some miracles .
i really need to recharge my body's fuel
its sucks to not to have enough sleep .
and the pity is,
MANY PEOPLE DON'T EVEN REALISE THAT THEY DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH OF QUALITY SLEEPS .
WTF man ?
u r stressed for no reason ?
u get stressed too easily ?
everything have been pressuring u too damn fucking easily ?
its all because of ur LACK OF QUALITY SLEEP, BITCHES .
it aint no because u have too damn much assignments or what,
its because u never really get urself enough sleep,
a really good one .
damn
and now why the fuck am i saying these rubbish ?
i should really take care of my own self 1st before taking care of others
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk .
wow
lets count how many fucks have i written :
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.
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nah im too lazy to scroll over here and there and search for the fucking 'fuck' word .
i really am too tired to do anything right now .
but here i am,
writing this pile of junk here .
just to let my emotions out
cos i cant actually let it out in the real world
im gonna make a lot of people disappointed
and its not good for me too .
sucks .
sometimes i wish i could do whatever i want in this world without any consequences coming to me .
i have been trying to embrace my fucking-so called- beautiful world .
but what does it do to me ?
it FUCKING DISAPPOINT ME .
so what am i embracing my life for ?
sucks .
i also damn hate the fucking money in this world .
although i understand very well that
more money = more power,
but still,
it will make u become crazier n crazier about it .
cos there will definitely people who will have more money than u
(it does not apply for the richest man in thte world tho)
but it does affects A MERE LOWLIFE LIKE ME .
whose life is controlled by money,
in which, not me, who is controlling my life .
who gets the more money, he will get everything .
i have been trained in a world like this .
and i DAMNED HATE THIS KIND OF WORLD .
why cant we just live happily,
helping each other,
no problems,
and we will all live happily
from the day we were born,
till the day we kiss the ground and die .
but instead,
money makes it all not possible !
great isn't it ?
because of the damned money,
people kills .
which one is more important ?
money ? or a live of a beautifully designed human being ?
some fools will choose money over it .
their mind has been corrupted .
and they thinks that people who thinks the opposite way are naive
great !
i am going mad living in a world like this
hahahahahahhahahahaha
fuck u all .
okay
i guess i have gone a tad overboard here .
maybe i should stop
and continue this chunk of trash here someday .
