im back blogginggg !
cos i have nothing really meaningful to do (at least its better than ironing my shirts xD)
anyway
i am here to write some news about my life
i will be dancing for the christmas celebration on 15th of november !
but i still dont know what to do .
as i dont have any picture of what we are going to really do .
anyway
i have been feeling lonely without my gf these days ):
i really miss her .
but i cant do anything much
cos we have broke up .
its a pity
cos i believe that our relationship actually have a bright future .
but i dont know how to say it .
i just cant continue with her .
aghhhhhhhhh
i really miss u
T___________T
but i have to b strong in this kind of situation .
cos i am actually being trained this way .
damn
its hard to do this .
i feel like crying at times .
but i cant
i have to learn to be joyful in even i am in not a situation to do so .

anyway .
i dont know if u will read this .
but 1 thing that i want to tell u through this :
i am really sorry for i have not been a good boyfriend for u .
and i rarely (or even never) say i love u to u .
but 1 thing i want u to know :
i never meant to break ur heart .
through all the things that we have been through,
i realise that i actually love u .
but i really cant be with u for some reasons .
please forgive me .
and i am sure that u will definitely find another man that's more worthy of u .
not such a coward like me .

i love u .

nic .