post again today...
today was quite a confusing day..
i managed to get my happiness back this afternoon,
but somehow
my pain is back again tonight...
the cut in my heart is deep.
hope to get it healed soon..
im starting to be more normal compared to last time
and today

i listen less to gazette songs
i dont know why,
i just want to break free from those songs
their musics are great,
however it somehow make me to be sad,
like opening my past wounds,
by listening to their musics
its like piling up my sadness
which will explode 1 day
its like a ticking time bomb

anyway...
now im getting all my consciousness back
no more blur me (soon)
no more slow-thinking me (soon)
and when all of em come back,
there will be a happy me :D

well,,
for now,
i have a theory
lol
its about her..
hehehehe
it doesnt really matter actually,
but finally i found out that
she is caring less about me
which is good, if shes not pretending
however,
my heart is actually aching inside
y'see im not as tough as i look
in the other hand,
this might be a test from her..
which i dont know how to react to it,
but i refuse to think about it
as it will make me more n more confused
i have faith in her ^^

and all i hope
all i want
is just to have
happy and simple life...
i want my freedom from this prison
im getting tired of being sad
so my friends at school might find less angry me from tomorrow onwards
hahaha..
outside, i might not change at all, and bet u wont believe that this thing is actually affecting me
but inside, im going through a torture
confused of what to do,
i decided to be myself,
always look happy
hahahaha

anddd

because my sis complained to me,
tellin me that ''bro, write ur blog in indon lah i cant understand what u r saying''
im gonna write another
in indon
hehehehe
sorry for english-users
this is the end :D